Jealousy kills.

You stopped replying my messages..

I got a feeling, that we're drifting apart.

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Yo, I didn't attend school today again. :D

I'm still sick lahh.

& I've decided, I'm gonna be a good girl from now on. (Y)

Study , study , study. :D

I've got to buck up ale.

No more slacking untill i pass my maths ! [:

But , i need a study partner, anybody wants to be my study partner? :D

Boy/girl, I don't mind. <:

But best is, girl.

Okay, gotta go study ale, BYE.

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Tag replies . <:

Bernice : Hey baby ! HAHHA. Only crazy people laugh themselves to sleep.

Charlene : Thanks ! :D

Min Hui : Relinked. [:

Silly me.

Yeah. I have a negative mind.

But i just can't help it, If i can think positive,

Then that will be great.

Yesterday you came and talk to me?

Didn't really have a good talk,

Cause i didn't talk.

As I'm afraid, once i open my mouth,

Tears will start dripping.

I know you care, Sorry for not replying you.

But, i was listening when you're talking.

After that, i went. As I've A.C.T

After that, i went for band.

I was burning. Yes. I'm sick.

Fever, cough, flu.

You only notice that i've flu & cough/sore throat.

But you didn't notice that i'm burning.

38.6.

My temperature. Didn't go to school today.

Anyways, thanks for caring.

Gave up.

I give up.

I can't stand it anymore.

You just don't know that you're the person who's making me cry huh?

Yes, i cried this few days because of YOU.

You kept asking me why am i crying.

Isn't it obvious? I'm sad.

Today , you hurt me again. You've hurt me many many times,

Still , i act as if nothing had happen.

But this few days, i can't seems to smile or laugh .

Even if i did, its all fake. Today, I ask you to meet me cause i need you,

You walked pass me twice, i kept calling you,

But you didn't hear me. You text me, & ask me where am i.

I said concourse. You ask me to go look for you as you were outside the GO.

I told you i was eating, & you said " Ohh.. I go first then."

And i replied " >: " , & you replied,

"Oh . bb " . You don't even bother to walk back to the concourse to look for me.

Today during recess time, i saw you.

You ask if i'm okay, I didn't answer you, i just walk away.

I didn't answer you cause, i'm not okay.

I don't wanna tell you i'm not okay , cause you'll ask me questions.

I was hoping for lesson to end faster, so that i can see you.

I was hungry, decided to go to the nearby 7-11 to buy food.

I looked at the time, it's almost 2.

I quickly paid money . And i ran back, under the rain.

Cause i'm afraid that you won't be able to find me.

And now, I'm sick. Cough , fever & flu.

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I've cried too much.. Way too much..

All i get is, disappointment.

I always thought I'm important to you.

I always thought I'm the one who stands beside you whenever you're feeling low.

Well, i guess i was wrong.

Silly me. *Laughs..*

I'm always trying my best to cheer you up..

It seems that i'm just wasting my time to try to cheer you up.

People normally says "A girl who cries herself to sleep."

That's what i am now..

Crying myself to sleep everynight.

Even in the morning, i can also cry.

I seriously, don't know how long i can continue..

I can't stand the pain anymore..

I just can't..

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我最害怕一个人..

但是,我现在只想一个人,

躲在一旁哭..

You lied . You just wanna make me happy by saying "I care."

You don't really care huh ..

You just wanna end this thing by saying, "I care."

But the truth is, You don't.

I'm not happy.. Cause you lied.

I no longer trust you.

Cause, you don't give a fucking shit about me.

If you don't care. Just say you don't.

Don't lie to me .

I rather you tell me the truth , then hurt me with your lies.

Aunt's wedding.

Edited. :D


This are the photos i took yesterday. There's more.
I'm just too lazy to upload it.
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Tag replies :
Nabilah : Okays. :D Thanks . Loves . (L)
忠心小Honq : Er.. Okay.. Thanks..

My happy life just ended.

I'm trying to not cry ..

I want to say fuck you and smile..

But the thing is.. I can't.

My happy lifes are over.. From now on..

I'll live in misery..

Angry!

URG !!!

Can't go to MARINA BAY SANDS tml AGAIN !!!

URRRRRUUUGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG!!!!!

You're the light that feeds the sun, in my world.

I eat happy pills everyday.

In order to stay happy.

i eat happy pills everyday ,

to make people think that i'm not miserable.

I eat happy pills everyday , So that people won't know i'm sad.

I eat happy pills everyday , to make myself feel happy.

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Yo people. Firstly ,

I wanna thank Clara , Nabilah & Liyena for cheering me up. :D

Thanks ! :D

Well , everytime i read his pm , i'll feel sad.

& i don't know why.

I'll also feel angry , cause he's silly to think that way .

She no longer love you , and you still think of her every day & night.

What's the point ? Making yourself miserable ?

Whatever . Your problem , not mine.

From now on , You go your life , i go mine.

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P/s : 10 more days to our 3rd month. :D

I'm a bitch.

Yeah . I guess, Many people find me irritating huh .

Guess I'm such a fucking bitch , that makes people hate me..

Everything i do is always wrong..

People out there. Hate me for all you want.

I don't wanna care anymore.

Maybe Clara's right ? In this world..

There's not REAL friends..

Maybe I'm fated to be alone?

I sucks in everything. I sucks in making friends , sucks in relationships..

I SUCKS.

AMANDA LEE YAN LING IS A BITCH.

Why must you torture me?

Life's boring, isn't it?

Today mood swing. Very heavy mood swing.

Somethings i don't wanna elaborate about.

Well , today after school , nobody pei me.

So messaged Gangyi. Actually asked him to pei me one.

But then i found my friends. So he went his own way lorh .

Took photos. But not gonna upload it today .

Messaged JingHong also. But he didn't reply. Ask him to reply , then he reply.

well , just some nonsense & i'll end my post.

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You don't seems to care about me anymore. Not like last time.

Ask you to come look for me after school , also never.

You only need me when you're feeling low/down/sad.

But when you're happy , you forget about me.

I'm just a toy to you ain't I ?

If you don't want me anymore, throw me away .

Stop picking me up and throw me away again.

It hurts me when you do that.. Stop it will you..?

I'm confused. Why did you say that ?

Hello. School was normal today,

Boring also. -.-

Went to 7-11 after school with Hafizhah, Sarah & Syafiq. :D

Saw GangYi. I was jumping over there , for nothing.

As i've got nothing to do , & then he say i like 小孩子.

I'm only 12 okay ! Still young. Teehees ! :D

Went for band after that , NDP rehearsal.

Tiring. Disappointing also.

Sorry Liyena ! >: Please don't cry anymore !

Went to mac to look for mum.

Eat ale, take cab home .

& bathed, on comp.

Study for home econ test. Here I am , posting now.

Shall go sleep now. TATA ! (L)

Distracted.

Heyaw ! :D

I'm back. Apologize for not posting yeah.

Had band today. :D Okayokay , not bad only.

I've moved house. <: Gonna miss my old house . :<

Have to take very long time to travel back from school.

Today BI fetch me home. (L)

THANKYOU ! :D

Okay , shall end my post here. TATA ! (L)

Yo.

Shall post tml ! :D

Tag me people !

Stop your nonsense. You're creating more trouble.

How i wish my birthday cake is the picture shown above . >:

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Well , today isn't a good day . I didn't enjoy it .

BAD DAY . Meet , Bi at plaza today . Went mac to eat+ study .

Guai right ? I know . :D Then went to fetch my di .

Chatted on the phone with Bi on the way home . :D

TATA ! (L)

Go away lah.

OMG , I regretted not going to MARINABAY SANDS with cousins ! >:

Nevermind.. Went out with Boyboy today . (:

Went to plaza to eat , then proceed to lot one .

Saw Cynthia & her stead . :D

They both wear black sial . LOL .

Then went back to plaza again . -.-

LOL . Eat , then go home . (:

I shall stop crapping. :D

A simple message for Farusha and i'll end my post . :D

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Dear Farusha : You want to quarrel with me because of ______ ?

Fine then , I don't really care. I'm sure you'll regret . :D

Say i like to confront people and i never think of how other people feel ?

Well , do you even know why i confront people ?

Don't know ? Then Zip it. See if you like it when people give you attitude not .

Don't talk bad about other people lahh , didn't know you have a side which people don't like .

I always thought you're the most perfect friend i have. A friend that will be there for me no matter what .

But i guess , I'm wrong huh . How foolish of me to think that way .

So long, LOLLIPOP.

Airplanes in the the sky.

HELLLOOOOOOOO PEOOOOOPLLLLEEEEEEE !

I'm back in action ! HAHHAHA .

I'm not going to Marina bay SANDS tml ! >:

Because of _________ .

Charlene Jiejie's gonna take many many photos for me ! (:

Short post for today. :D

TATA ! (L)

Let me believe. Let me breathe.

Love's scary . You'll never know who will hurt you .

Cause when you're hurt by love many many times ,

Trust me , You won't even know love exsist.

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I was really jealous after you told me that. I don't know why.

Maybe , It's because i love you too much ?

I'm really scared.. Afraid that you might leave me..

Afraid that your love for that person will come back again...

Let it go.

Yeah , I don't really have the mood to post right now ,

Due to some personal reasons . Don't ask me . Didn't really have fun in school today ..

Nowadays .. People are like ignoring me .. Sometimes .. I really feel left out when I'm walking with my friends.. I feel lonely .. Although I've many wonderful friends around me , i still feel lonely..

My friends don't seems to care about me anymore , Not like how they care for me last time..

Even my gans are all like that .. I seriously don't know what to do .. I need a listening ear..

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You don't seems to understand me..

STFU .

Shut up can anot ? I had enough of your naggings & shouting .

Want to concentrate on my work also cannot ,

You're simply pissing me off . Stop throwing your temper at me. I had enough.

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I guess , I'm not the perfect girl for you , ain't I ?